“And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all …” – Mark 16:17, 18a
It was fall, 1991, and my usual “cold season” had started already. In those days I was still struggling to keep my immune system strong, but year after year, when autumn came, with it came a steady stream of colds that lasted until spring.
That night I had a particularly horrible bout. I had all the symptoms – runny nose, raw throat, congestion, cough, headache, fever, yadda-yadda-yadda…
I was desperate to get some sleep. So, like any normal red-blooded American, I took drugs. Specifically, a “multi-symptom” liquid containing every imaginable cold medicine, plus alcohol. I never drank, but that night I just wanted to be knocked out and escape the misery for a while.
The escape lasted for about four hours, and at 3:00 A. M. I was wide awake, all the symptoms having come back with a vengeance.
I thought, I know I’m probably not supposed to do this, but at this point I don’t care. I took a second dose and was knocked out for a few more hours.
A few days later, the monster had subsided a bit, but in the meantime, I had noticed something else unusual. Suspicious and a bit apprehensive, I bought a home pregnancy test kit.
It was October 31, and pulling the kit out of the bag, I said to Marty, “Well, honey, it’s Halloween. You wanna do something really scary?” He turned an appropriate, ghostly pale.
As you can probably guess (Why else would I be telling this story?), the result was positive. Just to make sure, I showed the stick to Marty and asked if he saw a pink line. He said he did.
“So, does that mean we’re having a girl?” asked my adorably oblivious husband.
Later, I had a thought that turned my joy into anxiety: I had taken all those drugs and alcohol the other night, when unbeknownst to me, I was already pregnant! Though it wasn’t yet the size of a kidney bean, I had already potentially poisoned my baby! Of course, I wouldn’t know whether that knock-out medicine had done any harm for a long time. How would I survive not knowing something that important for nearly nine months?!
About a week later, I was at my children’s school, making apple pies for a fundraiser with a group of other moms. Denise, a woman I was vaguely acquainted with approached me.
“Annie …” She seemed hesitant to continue, maybe trying to put what she had to say into words. “Is … anything going on in your life right now?”
“Well,” I said, smiling, still in awe of my situation, “I just learned I’m pregnant again.” Then curious, I wanted to know, “Why do you ask?”
“Last week, the Lord woke me up in the middle of the night and told me to pray for you.”
I let that statement sink in, then felt compelled to ask, “Do you remember what night?” She thought a moment.
“It was Tuesday,” she said, “at about 3:00 in the morning.”
About the time I was gulping down my second dose of “poison.”
“And you prayed for me?” She smiled and nodded.
“Thank you.” I didn’t know what else to say. (And thank YOU, I added silently.)
From that moment, I decided I was not going to spend nine months stressing out over whether this baby was going to be something it shouldn’t be because I did something wrong. I turned my child over to the One who created her in the first place, knowing that He’d had her all along.
Later I was to stand up to a doctor who warned me that at my age there was a greater chance of having a child with Down’s Syndrome. He wanted to give me a test to determine if this were the case with my baby.
“So … if the test comes out positive, what can we do about it?” I asked. I knew what the “answer” would be for some women, but he knew that was not an option for me.
“Well,” he said hesitantly, “you prepare yourself for it.”
“I’ll prepare myself now,” I said. “And if the baby’s normal, it’ll be a pleasant surprise.” There was something else I needed to say that I felt needed saying. I had done a little research, read some statistics. “What are the chances that I would have a Down’s Syndrome child at my age, anyway?”
“For 40-year-old women, about one percent,” he confirmed what I had read. At 38, I wasn’t concerned.
“I’ve read that the test carries a risk of miscarriage. Is that true?”
“A slight risk,” he answered.
“So, let me get this straight … You’re asking me to take a test and risk miscarriage, because there’s a one percent chance of something I can’t do anything about anyway?!”
The doctor put up his hands in surrender. “Oh stop it!” he scolded.
(No, you stop it, I grumbled silently.)
Flash Forward: I did not have the test. Kelly did not have Down’s Syndrome. That doctor did not deliver her. In fact, I delivered her (Duh.), with the help of a different doctor.
And the Lord delivered me from the poison of fear, with the help of a lady named Denise.
Prayer: Father, thank You so much for speaking to Denise, for her obedience, and for prompting her to tell me about it. Thank You for Your patience with us, as You tell us again and again not to worry and we do it anyway! Help us to trust You more and reserve our emotional energies for what You’ve called us to do for Your kingdom, in Jesus’ name. Amen.
